your problem probably isn't what to do so much as your interest in being part of society.
just make some money and bit your lip and just take the poison of life. Don't worry about what it is
get a certification in some sort of trade, only takes about a year of training and the pay is good
yeah it will be out of my pocket sooner or later
probably from loans first
for me college is about forming relationships and new experiences
but my chance is gone
since its coming out of your pocket you shouldnt unless youre serious about getting a degree and have a steady supply of adderall